Chapter 3 – Home (part 1)

  • don’t worry reproductive system, you’ll be fine

    It turns out that I don’t have to worry about losing my fertility, because there is a small change that it happens with this chemo. It is actually better than I thought; I get four days of chemo, then I have two weeks to let my body rest and get better and then another round […]

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  • becoming an adult (on paper)

    Yesterday I turned 18!!!! The day started with, of course, my family singing for me. We had a nice breakfast (with some presents J) and then I got ready to go to Ynco, a guy who cured himself from a tumor by meditating and eating warm energetic foods (I’m not really sure what that means, […]

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  • a good conversation with the doctor…

    I had another picture at the hospital a few days ago, which showed that the tumor didn’t get any smaller (it also hasn’t grown, but that’s not the point). The doctor was pushing and saying that I don’t hold onto any consequences, because the tumor went from 16 cm to 20 cm in 6 weeks. […]

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  • the squirrel’s birthday

    I read the book Brandon Bays wrote; The Journey. She tells about how she had a tumor the size of a basketball inside her stomach and how she got rid of it by releasing trapped emotions. Now she created a visualization about how she did it, called The Journey (because you go on a journey […]

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  • Kingsday with Tamar and Flo

    The last few days I didn’t do very special stuff, but today is Kingsday in the Netherlands, so Tamar came by this afternoon to dress up in orange and red, white and blue. We walked through Baambrugge and talked to some people we ran into, which was great! <With Tamar on Kingsday This morning I […]

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  • The spider that kept coming out of the drain

    Today I cooked a lot, which makes me feel a lot better than I did the last few days. I actually felt better the whole day, because I am doing everything with more attention and I am thinking less about what doesn’t go right and how I should follow rules about how to eat and […]

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  • I got a ukulele!!!

    I noticed that I was feeling not very good the last few days, so I decided to cook some more. I feel like it will help me with what my body needs and this way I can be a little creative with what I want to eat. Jip came by this afternoon and brought a […]

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  • Being home

    Being home is really nice, but I did notice that it’s a little harder to focus on my process when I’m in my old situation with old friends and my old room. I saw a few old friends today and yesterday, which I really enjoyed. It’s mostly hard to focus on the mental and emotional […]

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  • Going home

    Tamar stayed over tonight and, because it was the last day in Noordwijk, this morning we went skinny dipping with her, Greethje and my mom. It was really cold, but also really amazing!!!! When we came back, we danced and had breakfast. In the afternoon, we laid in the sun and actually didn’t do very […]

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