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  • A boost of healing!!

    So you probably know the feeling of finding something so awesome, you want to tell everyone about it, because everyone just HAS to try it out! I have this feeling with the experiences I had the past week… I was feeling like shit at the hospital, went home and two days later, while still bringing […]

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  • Rigpa energetic healing?

    The last few days were, to be honest, not amazing. I could go outside, which is always really nice for a while, but I feel sick after a while. I’m having a hard time eating something. Keeping something inside when I eat is also really hard, with as result that I’m losing a lot of […]

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  • freedom!!! (almost)

    I had the last bag of 30 minutes last night and it made me feel pretty sick. I was not a big fan of taking the medicine for the sickness, but eventually I took it because I couldn’t keep puking… I also had the epidural, which gave me a really heavy headache. I heard that […]

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  • how to stay fit at the IC

    My grandma passed away last night and even though she is physically gone, I do believe that the moment your body stops working, your soul does some sort of magic. I honestly don’t know how I feel about it any further, but I still feel like she is dancing around somewhere (she was in a […]

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  • Letter to myself

    Dear Florine, I want to tell you with all the love, patience and kindness that you will get cancer following the way you are living right now. Yes, the one that scares the doctors, which doesn’t scare you as much as you would ever expect. But what you don’t know, is that you will feel […]

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  • chilling at the intensive care

    It feels like I’m on some sort of drug that makes me feel really relaaaxed… I think it’s because of the antibiotics, chemo and prednisone. No matter what makes me feel so good, I’m fine because it helps me to receive the chemo better and to feel more relaxed. My face is a little bloated […]

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  • Moving to the hospital

    Today I went to the hospital and got all settled in for the next few days, when a whole circus of doctors came into my room (it’s still an academic hospital so only one of them was the real doctor, who also talked a little like a witch so it was definitely an interesting experience). […]

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  • don’t worry reproductive system, you’ll be fine

    It turns out that I don’t have to worry about losing my fertility, because there is a small change that it happens with this chemo. It is actually better than I thought; I get four days of chemo, then I have two weeks to let my body rest and get better and then another round […]

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  • becoming an adult (on paper)

    Yesterday I turned 18!!!! The day started with, of course, my family singing for me. We had a nice breakfast (with some presents J) and then I got ready to go to Ynco, a guy who cured himself from a tumor by meditating and eating warm energetic foods (I’m not really sure what that means, […]

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  • a good conversation with the doctor…

    I had another picture at the hospital a few days ago, which showed that the tumor didn’t get any smaller (it also hasn’t grown, but that’s not the point). The doctor was pushing and saying that I don’t hold onto any consequences, because the tumor went from 16 cm to 20 cm in 6 weeks. […]

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